Mouthful of Koryn

When you told me you hated me,

Part of me wanted to tell you that you couldn’t possibly hate me as much as I hate you.

But I didn’t,

I was hurting,

But I knew you were hurting more.

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When you called me a liar,

I wanted to scream.

I wanted to scream so loud,

So FUCKING loud that you could hear me from 2,415 miles away.

If I was ever a liar,

It was because you made one out of me.

I told you I hated vanilla ice cream because of how plain it is

But after finding out it’s your favorite, especially with peanut butter

It is all I can eat whenever I crave something sweet.

I told you I have been in love before

But because of you,

I don’t know anymore

I told you I don’t forgive people more than once

But you kept hurting me

And I forgave you twice, three times, now four

Why am I always so fucking forgiving

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Who are you?

What have you done to me

When you removed me out of your life completely,

Where you left me, I knew this was the worst place to be

Why am I always the one who has to be sorry?

I know I tried my best

Please forgive me

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Please sit with the anger until it tells you it’s real name

Shows you it’s real face

Disappointment,

Grief

Agony

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When you told me you hated me,

Part of me wanted to tell you that you couldn’t possibly hate me as much as I hate you.

But I didn’t

Because I didn’t want to be a liar anymore

Which means that I can’t tell you that I don’t miss you

Because I do

I really fucking do