Mouthful of Koryn

I was driving

And without warning,

Or reasoning,

I just burnt into tears

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I think that’s when I realized that I feel a lot more lonely than I let people think

I don’t know what “it” is, but I am missing it desperately.

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There is a part of me that is desperate to know if my absence has made any difference to you

That there could be a possibility that you too, experience long restless nights thinking of me like I do you

That your heart hurts the same, and is broken in the same places as mine

I just want to know that I’m not the only one hurting

I just want to know that I actually meant something to you

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I tried to change

I closed my mouth more

And I tried to be softer,

Prettier

Less volatile

But I wish I knew that you can’t make homes out of human beings

I wish I knew that

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I constantly ask myself if it was ever real, but considering how badly it hurts,

I know that it was

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If they want to leave, you have to let them leave

You are not someone everyone knows how to love

People may not tell you how they feel about you, but they always show you.

And so many people saw this coming, but all I ever wanted was for you to prove them wrong

But you couldn’t even do that for me.

And I wish I knew when it was time to move on,

But I don’t

No one does

It just isn’t your decision to make, you can’t just persuade a heart to abandon a feeling

If you feel like moving on is ever a choice

Then you already have.

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Love isn’t enough to make someone stay, and it pained me to learn such a hurtful lesson

All I’ve ever wondered was why am I never enough to make anyone happy

But crying yourself to sleep every night even though you’re with the one you love, is absolutely no way to live

And although you may not be the father of my future kids

You’ll be the one I talk about when they go through their first heart ache

And I’ll warn them that sometimes

Sometimes

Cupid runs out of arrows and shoots only one person

Instead of two.