Mouthful of Koryn

The word insignificant plays a huge role in this piece, and my life

It is the only word that explains the way I feel the majority of the time,

and I wanted to write about it.

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I often find myself thinking of those who were so significant to me,

Only to find out I was so insignificant to them.

How can someone make such an impact in your life

But there is the possibilty you will never see them again?

I am convinced that I am the one person that appears in peoples lives to help them and I am starting to understand why most of my relationships with people are one sided,

People do not serve a purpose in changing me,

I change them.

I am just the healing stage for someone else,

And I am convinced that I was put on this Earth to give more love than I will ever receive.

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I am trying not to be angry,

But that is all I feel

Why would you hurt someone, whose only intention,

Was to love you?

But angriness is just a punishment that we give ourselves,

For someone elses mistake.

But it isn’t a mistake,

People are allowed to leave you.

People are allowed to put their happiness above yours

And people are allowed to better themselves, and become the version of themselves that they are desperately trying so hard to love,

But so are you.

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Whenever I catch myself missing someone who made the decision to leave,

I remind myself that them choosing to leave and not being part of my present life is a consistent choice that they wake up and choose to make every single day

They are indifferent to the space between us getting larger, and they maintain the silience.

Time and time again I remind myself it is not my fault, and it never was,

But I can never help but tell myself that if I was good enough, they would have stayed.

Sometimes you need to give up on people,

And it isn’t because you don’t care,

It is because they don’t.

Don’t ever be afraid of losing someone who doesn’t feel lucky to have you.

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I will not let the pain I feel, make me forget all of the love I have

I was enough,

I am enough,

And I will always be enough.