i have spent so much of my life, apologizing for things i cannot change. like the way my heart feels too much, or the way i never quite fit into my own name. i look at myself like something unfinished, unclear. like a version of me, that was never meant to be here. like i…

maybe i’d matter if i disappeared,if silence screamed the things you always feared.if all the words i wasted near your sidereturned as ghosts that burned where you would hide. right now i’m nothing but a shade,a hand you never hold, just a name that fades.a shadow slipping past your careless eyes,a fleeting presence no one…

sometimes i forget, that i am supposed to have a dad. i should be over this by now, but i am forever mourning what i wish i could have had. i watch the world spin on, like nothing is missing from my side. while i am still learning how to live with something, that i…

I drove passed your house today, I used to live there. My bedroom was down the hall, to the right, next to the garage, on your left. I used to play in that yard, my brothers and I had a trampoline. My uncle broke it. Most of my friends and family that have been in…